Monday, February 01, 2010

Of False Vanities and Such...

False vanities.. all in our attempt to give us that doll like appearance.. false lashes that make our otherwise sparse short lashes a temporary glam boost... cosmetic coloured lenses.. mine here gray nonetheless to give an edge to an otherwise plain face.. to make at least something stand out from the ordinary..

Collagen minty lip plumping lipstick... has to be sparkly bling to add that extra oompf... and oh.. not forgetting.. airbrushed tattoos for a day.. yeah.. only one day to be a rebel on an otherwise un-tarnished, un-inked skin... simply because I wouldn't dare to get a real one.. lest I regret having something so permanent...wrinkles give more than enough to deal with as it is...

Why we revel in such falsities, sometimes I wonder... curiosity?
The desire to be desired and to try to fit into a mold that would be social norm and acceptance.. desperation where we feel youth slowly slipping away... where fluttery coloured eyes, doll like faces, rebel with an attitude adornments comes a body that doesn't go beyond a size 10-12 and becomes unheard of when people ask how old you are.. in your mid 30s and with 2 pre-teen kids? I think thats an achievement in itself already! Isn't it?

So what happens to the ones that do not fit into the mold.. still human with feelings and desires... still the same person.. perhaps trapped in a body damned by procrastination... something must be done...

Am I happy that I CAN... yeah sure.. am I happy that I'm still procrastinating... NO.

I've come this far.. I can go further.. I can do better. I know I'm blabbering and not making much sense.. heck even I'm confusing myself.... my thoughts run in all directions... this year will be a good year.. simply because.. I will make it a good one for me, my self and I... for my family and for those around me...

Oh and this years resolution post Chinese New Year this month.. get down to 60kg before my birthday on the 2nd of July 2010... stop the procrastination. Just going to do it.